hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

alec is gone now.

i should be so more ok with this than i am.
why am i upset about something i didnt even want.

i feel so lonely here.
al would never visit.
my apparent best friends are too busy with each other to come see me.
i love my flatmates, but its like living at home. you live with someone for so long, its not like a holiday here anymore.
sometimes you just need a home comfort to visit you. just for something new.
but no-one will.
im a sad lonely lemon.
boignhdofigxjsr vfpod.
and i messed things up with a boy again.
and ive got too much pride to fix it.
and he doesn't understand what its like to be here.